Wednesday, December 31, 2008

today the last day of year 2008 le... tmr's a new year liao... like what Pastors said... the new year of 2009, will be the best year ahead... Hallelujah!! Amen!! :D

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

sick le...dont know why, from morning, my nose jus cant stop flowing...jus like a tap...haa...esp during interweb lesson...even worst...haa...
yeah!! today the html paper, finally over liao...yeah!! html, is jus like a "nightmare" to me...haa... really hope will do well for this paper...
everytime during lesson, will surely without fail ask for help de... haa... thanx kusuma for helping... :D

Sunday, December 28, 2008

so tiring today...haa...but kind of fun de...jus only yesterday before svc, jace then ask if want work tmr... like so rush de... work at zoo... can imagine...haa...work for like abt 5 hrs...yeah... was to help the children with the "horse riding"..children, indeed are so cute...haa...

i'm burnt again le...under the hot sun...haa... burn burn burn, become so tanned liao... and the face is so red...haa...

so pics taken...

all the "horses"..

Thursday, December 25, 2008

It's Christmas!! went for Christmas Eve svc yesterday... had Christmas drama and another candlelight... was seated at the very last row, saw the light being passed from the front, all the way, and also saw the lights glowing in the dark...

Christmas... in the past, Christmas for me is a day to give presents, have nice decorations...

today, was the 3rd Christmas i'm celebrating for the real meaning...

Chris†mas...is not only the day where ppl exchange gifts and do decorations. But is the day Jesus Christ was born... The day where God sent His only son to earth to give us life, light... This is the day, where through Jesus, we can have the relationship with our Heavenly Father!!

For those who believe in Him shall not abide in darkness, shall not perish, but shall live in light and eternal life... Hallelujah!! This is the day, where Man have joy, hope, love, peace and life..

pics of the Christmas drama...
---Merry
-----Christmas!!

taken abt a week ago le...hee!! can guess where is it?...

Sunday, December 21, 2008

been sometime i update le...haa... lazy ar...hee...

hmm, jus post afew pictures i took that day i went to botanic gardens bah...








mus be wondering what is this... is tortise in the pond!! :D
happened quite alot of things de...but then, jus update the best de bah... :D
yesterday's CHRISTMAS PARTY with the cg and the CANDLELIGHT SVC!!... was really awesome...

the msg from Pastor Kong was on the 3 things Christmas can do for us..
allow Jesus to give us...
-value
-vision
-compassion..

these 3 things got to do with LIGHT... God wants us to shine the light for Him for He is glorious...bringing His light to the ppl around us who is in darkness...wow..
we each had a candle, being lighted up from 1 person, passing to ppl around, lighting up the whole place... by jus 1 person, can slowly light up the whole place... that's the power of LIGHT!!

some pictures i took...

during the candlelight, a candle with a small bright burning flame...singing christmas carols... was really an undescribable experience...

a picture came to my mind... every Man God created during christmas day, celebrating the birth of Christ... how amazing that is...



haa...counting down...4 days to Christmas!!...

looking forward to the christmas drama... OPERATION SAVE THE WORLD!!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

wooh.. what a nice slp!! haa...didnt get enough slp for the last few nitez...been rushing tutorials, and fri nite, was in sch preparing for yesterday de Games Day... left sch like around 11pm...can imagine...of cos reach home receive all the scolding and nagging...haa...
Games Day!!

the credit goes to every committee and also participants who made Games Day a fun and successful one!! really know how difficult and how much things have to be taken note of to run an event...

left house at 6.20am de leh...went to ida's place to help carry things... now my arms muscles are acheing liao...haa...alot of ppl late de...so things doesnt go according to our proposal...haa...

play captains ball with the few ppl, round 2 when more participants came followed by water-warfare for the winning team... with 2 water guns a plastic cups... can imagine, the waterguns are william's, and he use it to spread pesticides on plants... can imagine if some water were to go in your mouth... lucky i dont have...haa...

really got to know quite a few new ppl de... not really consider new lah... keep hearing their names, contacting them with no replys...finally got the see them yesterday le...

had lunch, from sch south canteen.. [my hse :P]..haa... what i can say is the fd is very nice!! haa...after lunch, had station games followed by mass games de...haa...shuhui came so late, didnt get the chance to eat the very nice food...haa...

during the station games, was cycling around pasir ris park, disturbing ppl...haa...

but, committee, surely when your see me sure is very happy de right?... cos i bring water for your... haa.. :Pwhen ending, was at the test your balance station... haa... jonathan rode the bike, and i sit behind enjoy the wind...haa...hope i'm not that heavy that uses too much of his strength... :P

mass games was fun too...but is kind of a time where i can rest abit...haa... very tired ar...hee

can see that ppl are happy cheering, clapping for each other... really hope they enjoyed themselves...

Games Day ended by a prize presentation, BBQ starts...had so much fd, and also chit chatting...haa... also have the chance to beat ppl...haa... cos Games Day over liao, then no chance to beat liao ar...mus beat abit more...haa...

really thank God that everything runs so smoothly and also the weather was so good that is not raining... though not very sunny, but i still burnt de... round 2... first round was jus a week ago...haa...

and last but not least, also the committee and participants de... without you ppl, it will be of such a success!! :D


pic taken with shuhui...finally take le...haa... standard chart de never take... :P
more will come... :D
dont know why my head is always so big de... :(

Thursday, December 11, 2008

yeah!! finally statis project completed le!! yeah!! haa...was like chiong all the way, do the whole report except the introduction today.. praise GOD!! haa...thought still have to stay back tmr to do!!... yeah!!... tmr can concentrate on Games Day liao...
today, some of the committee went to buy some logistics stuff liao...i didnt go...cos jus chiong finish the report with neela, ganga, vanessa and glen... very tired ar...and also tmr de tutorial also have do ar...haa...but then i will surely go tmr de...hee!!

Sunday, December 7, 2008

was such a long and tiring day de...

from yesterday, left hse abt 11.40am for cg, then continued by svc...continues fellowship, then meet in sch, then go for the standard chartered marathon...all the way...haa... really thank God for His strength throughout... though is tiring, but then, still feels the energetic and strength...
yesterday's svc by Rev. Dr. John Avanzini was great!! talking abt recession-proof... the big problem now...abt the three times of famine/recession in the bible --- Joseph, Isaac and David. was also given a stone so as to remind us how David slays the big giants... we too, can slay the devil!!

was the 2nd time gtg for fellowship de... the first time was like ages ago...haa... when to Gabriel's coffee shop for dinner and fellowship... its quite a rush de, cos need to be in sch by 11.30pm, and is meeting lydia 10.30 at mrt station... cos scared dark ar...haa... the "walking distance" to mrt station was sooo far...haa...
slpt in the rm where we always had our ateam general meeting e308... hmm, i slept for few hrs bah... think abt 3 hrs?...haa... cant really wake up de...haa... :p

took a bus there, had breakfast, and was out on the track get ready!! 3 categories... 42km, 21km and 10km for adults... also, there are children categories... they are all so cute!! children are always cute!! haa...
empty lane...ppl awaits for the first runner...

example of rotting... shawn

from around 6 plus, was rotting...till like abt 7 plus, 8am... was urshering the ppl, cheering for them...quite busy with it de...hee... seeing their gladness when they had completed the marathon, was kind of proud of them de...haa...


yes!!! finally we finished the race!!! chasing up with lydia...haa... [actually is we drama de lah...haa...was waiting, then nothing to do... at least better than rotting... haa :p ]

cheer till my voice kind of a change, and hands are so painful, but i still find it a good thing to continue cheering for the other ppl de...hee...

also, something happened de...see the heart-shaped balloons, and also the white big one?... it was really a big big surprise for the gal lor... the guy was a participant of the marathon...and he actually proposed to the gal infront of so many ppl...touching right?...haa... of course we sure cheer and make noise de lah...haa...

under the hot sun, till around 2.30pm...can imagine how long they been running where the 42km race flags off at 5.30am... not only they are tired, we are standing under the hot sun for that long number of hrs too!!! except for lunch where we went to hide in the shade...haa :p

the difference of colour of my wrist...
the burnt face of my... very red right?...
yeah!! though tiring, but its fun!! but it wont be so fun without the ateam members and also the marathon participants!!! :D

Friday, December 5, 2008

today's econs paper is also terrible...haiz... most of the ans are not found in the lecture notez de...haiz...requires lots and lots of thinking, brain cracking...haa.. dont know how the result de... really hope can pass...

Thursday, December 4, 2008

today de management, should i say is good or bad de... the good thing is i am able to answer most of the qns...out of 6 lectures, dropped 2...haa... thank God that what the lectures that i studied for came out...hee.. but kind of abit like blank-out de...cant really recall everything... think will be at the border line plus minus bah...

tmr is econs le...hmm, econs are more prepared bah... 4 lectures...not so bad...hee... lets see how tmr bah...

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

haa...been so long since i update le...hee...yesterday finally finish the afa show and tell... hmm, quite sucessful de lah...hee... praise God!!
have 2 more paper left... management tmr and econs on fri...
tmr de management sure die de...have 6 chapts...and i was like not yet prepare anything...haa... will see how it goes...hee...

Sunday, November 23, 2008

woke up early today... dragging my feet to wake up de...haa... but its really so worth it to wake so early... cos i went for asia conference!! yeah!! haa...was actually thought of not gtg de...cos very early...if not i will slp the whole day?..haa..
the msg today was from Rev. Phil Pringle... though is not a very long msg, its still a really good one... really thank God that i could be in the conference de... had praise and worship by CHC band, Don Meon, and CCC band... was really awesome...wow, was something really not to miss...the next asia conference, in year 2010... but before that, will be looking forward to EMERGE!! in 2009...yeah!!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

should i say today is good or bad de... went for asia conference, but then was such big crowd that i cant get in...what a long queue to foyer 3 de... reached before 6 orh... haiz... no chioce but to go home orh...
on the bus, thought quite a lot de...
maybe i had been too busy with the sch work, projects, and also games day de... had not been gtg for either cg or svc for like few weeks le...
where has God been in my equation in life le... it seems to have slowly slowly without realisation been taken out...
really cant describe how i am feeling de... is kind of a mixed...
if i had ever let go, God, never let go of me...

Wednesday, November 19, 2008


today's the first day of Asia conference le...kind of excited de...haa...
the first time CHC is having a conference... for the pass few years are EMERGE!!!..haa...
in less than an hour, the first session is gtg to start... but, i'm only gtg for the weekend sessions.. cos lesson and projects and also a-team duties...
its gtg to be fun, and life-transforming...wow, cant wait for the weekends to come...hee...
yeah!!! with 10 sessions, with up to 6 electives to be able to attend... speakers from round the world, and special performance...wow, that's what everyone is waiting for...!! :D

Sunday, November 16, 2008

jus to post some pics... was taken on fri, at my " hse" --- SC...haa...kk, i know is lame...wahaha...

suppose to de html report de...then after lunch, dont know why suddenly come up with this idea of comparing who's stronger...

round 1... kusuma with chuanjie...


chuanjie won...




next round...
leader hong~ with chuan jie...
looks like our leader hong~ tries hard...but in the end, chuanjie still win lah...
two more round, me and kusuma, me and shuhu...haa...
but no pic...cos photographer not available... :p
dont see kusuma skinny skinny de, he's quite strong de wor... cant play play...

Thursday, November 13, 2008

schedule for yesterday was so pack...in sch for like 12 hrs?...haa...had my narrative speech presentation yesterday...followed by a-team duty, then gm... so tired de...hee...

the presentation yesterday was terrible lor...haiz...kind of line forget the lines...repeated..haa...hai hao given a chance...hee...

overall, i think my story ok mah...but then mrs nair say my story makes her hair stands, is like watching a movie...haa...so bad meh?... sad liao... :( haa... narrative mah...can make up stories, then no need to be real-life experience...

i brought some 'visual aids'... a ppt slide and one of my favourite some toy...


hee...this doraemon is from chee kiong and gwyn for my birthday present this year... cute right...

and this flower is hand-made de orh...hee...nice...hee...but then dont think too much...
i got it from 'angel and mortal' game de... yeah..haa...

a-team was for the sbm day duty...was selected by mr terrence koh to go attend also...so is i go for 2 purpose orh...haa... is not so bad lah.. but then my toes is so painful by the heels...and also thirsty...

good that hong wei went also...ask him to fill his water bottle full full...haa...
then shuhui and i drink like crazy... haa... thanx! le...leader hong!!... haa...

during the gm, the main star in our buddy grp is my doraemon...cos it is so cuteee...hee...

took the same bus home as mark... he shared abt God and the ministry... wow...
he really serves God and at the same time, manage his time so well with school work, etc. ...

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

tmr is the oral com presentation liao le...arrr...havent really memorise the whole speech yet... searching for things to bring as crops also...haa...kind of running out of time?...haa...ok lah, not so bad...
i got a gd new today!! yeah!! hahaa... received a phone call from itin...
guess what she says... the proposal, everything was ok...except for the budget...too much liao...haa...wow, so happy...hee... its done!! and..ya, its done!! haa... thank God for His strength throughout...Hallejujah!!
now, the crucial thing... is whether jasmine say ok mah..haa... tmr have gm... really wish that its ok, then jiu good le... all the hard work and efforts are not in vain... :D

Sunday, November 9, 2008

finally, finally!!! i'm done with the Games Day proposal... wow, really spend so much time on it... thurs, fri, stay in sch do till 8pm... yesterday night, do till 3am lor... today morning wake up, do till now, finally, i'm done!! Praise God!! thannk God for His strength... have tutorials, html project, and this proposal...really tired me out... Yeah!! done!! :D

Thursday, November 6, 2008

back to pasir ris park again yesterday evening... but this time only 3 person including me de... me, ida and william...we really like really didnt so much de...cycle half of the pasir ris park only...revisiting the same old place again...searching for clues for the games...its really hard to find orh...
the thing is i took the bigger bike yesterday de...same as everybody...then i dont have to paddle like crazy to catch up, but is still distance away... make my muscles ache also...yeah!! yesterday de, was great...big!! no need to cycle till so xin ku... haa...
yeah!!...but i too short liao...on the bike, cant reach the floor de, and the brake is quite far from the handle, that is difficult for me to reach...kind of scary de...haa...but fun...yeah!! haa...
now then i realise how short and small-size i am... haa...
fun is onething... when go down the slope...think even more fun...haa...
when i turn, i jus ride and turn... kind of dangerous lah...but i lazy to get down ar...hard to get up or down de ar...haa... then...
bang!!! on the tree it goes... my leg had torns from the plants... so painful...but then still not so bad...lots of scratches only...so ugly de... :(

thank God, only scratches...and didnt really have any injuries... yeah!!!
haa...now see, my leg and hands are so yellowish de... apply it yesterday myselfff... haa... really can scream like crazy when in contact with water de... :(

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

haa...here to update on the meeting yesterday...its kind of a disappointment lah...put in so much effort, in the end, everything was done so badly...alot of small details such as letter caps and other stuff... everything got to kind of redo... did a discussion after the serious stuff...
today will go down to the place again... and for the next few days, will be working on the proposal...ya...so, let's all jia you tgt... :D

Thursday, October 30, 2008

finally i'm back!!! been busy with sch work, projects and games day event... past few days, been meeting up for games day discussion, to finalise everything... thank God that in the team, there are quite a handful of committed members de...whenever there's a meeting, they are usually there...if not, ihave do everything myself...can imagine...haa...really tired...and even kind of falling sick.. :( but still thank God for His strength throughout all this..been waking up so early and slp so late...missed so much of slp...haa...
the project is kind of a short nightmare... can imagine...jus tue, given the topic, and we got to do our presentation on coming tue... jus 1 week only... been quite a rush de... really wish to be able to complete everything and did all preparation before the presentation...

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

finally, the interweb presentation is over... its really so rush de... last week given the qn, today present...exactly one week only lor...overall, the presentation was not so bad...praise God!!! now, presentation over, need rush the report liao...dont know when need hand-in de...think 2 weeks bah...cos i know is not next week... :p
after lesson, 6pm, have a meeting with jasmine abt the review on our games day event proposal...die liao... think will get scolding or something de...cos didnt really do a good job for it...will see how it goes... and, ya... stay tune for updates!!! :D
been rotting at home for the past few days... slp, eat, sushido, chat...that's all i've been doing for the last 2 days.. today de lecture hall dont know why so cold de...think gtg to fall sick le bah... cold, cold, cold!!! borrow jacket, now in tutorial room also cold... falling sick le... starting to have block nose le... :( ...haa...shuhui also...we are like spreading to each other...haa...
lesson till 6 today...have ica somemore leh...die liao...do ica at this kind of condition... after that still need meet up for games day discussion... think today will be the last de le bah..haa... see, shen bing ren still need to go for meeting...haa... really hope the discussion will go on smoothly, and end early... :)

Saturday, October 25, 2008

reach expo quite early today de...around 4 plus...haa... before svc, gwyn spoke to me personally.. jus asking me abt life recently...didnt really have the time to say much, but she asked me a qn... "what role God play in my life... is it a religion or a relationship" my ans was very short... its not a religion, but a relationship... on the way home on the bus, i was thinking what role God really plays..
God is always someone whom i can look to... whenever there's joy or tears, God is always here to share... He is always there to encourage me to continue to carry on... Hallejujah!!!
svc ended rather late today de... and waited so long at the busstop for the bus...at tampines interchange, met mark and his gf?...dont know who also... for the past 2 years, never once seen him... but only yesterday, when we took the same bus also from tampines then get to know that we attend the same church svc... he even say how is it possible to see in that thousands of ppl de...jus today jiu saw him le...haa...

Friday, October 24, 2008

didnt go for cg today... :( went to pasir ris park, ride bicycle till i'm now so tired...hahaa... hey hey, not go there have fun orh...is go there for a-team, games day... if like left with less than 1 wk le...and we are like at the planning only... havent even start on the proposal...

meet 4pm in sch...was like deciding where to go...at first is want go chinese garden, after some discussion, decided to go east coast... in then end, as walking towards yio chu kang interchange, we finally make up our mind to go pasir ris park...hee... tgt the 5 of us, me, ida, poonam, maryam and mark...it was quite a long journey there... took mrt, bus and had a long walking distance...

when we reach there, rented a bicycle and started cycling round the place... its so far... 1 1/2 hrs... look around the place, finding spots for our different plans...yeah!!! really hope that things will really work out well on that actual day...
was clearing my mail box, and happened to see this mail... abt Mary and Martha...

Mary and MarthaIn the hustle and bustle of the job, fixing the car and trying to make ends meet, we can lose sight of the purpose of life. Many times, we don’t stop the mad rush until we face a devastating personal crisis. You can know the purpose of your life, and it will change everything. But sometimes that means you have to stop and just listen.Jesus visited the house of two sisters. Mary sat and listened to Jesus teach the principles of life. Martha was distraught with preparing a meal and complained that Mary wasn’t doing her part.Jesus answered, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things. But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her” (Luke 10:41-42). The details of life’s busyness would still be there tomorrow, but for now Mary saw the need to nurture her spiritual nature. It is the time you spend with your Creator in daily prayer and Bible study that will guide everything else in your life.
by Jerold Aust
more reading at http://www.gnmagazine.org/issues/gn25/profilesfaithmarymartha.htm

Monday, October 20, 2008

wake up real early...6.15am... and left hse few mins before 7am... early right?...haa... have an SMU event from ateam, at swiss cottage sec sch, bukit gombak...reporting time, 8.30am.
surely will think i sure will be early de right...1hr 30 mins, sure can reach on time de, or even earlier...haa...but then know what?!!...i was late lor...haiz...reach there was like around 8.50am liao leh...then somemore i still take mrt from bukit batok de lor...if not even think 9 also dont know will reach not ar...haa...
now, i learned a lesson...never take bus 156!!!... i took 159 to imh, then take 156...this bus is terrible lah...go make rounds around Singapore...and also go some ulu ulu places...really rotten in that bus lor...that bus is really terrible... never never never take that bus...haa
usually, if take 74, goes to bukit batok, only takes like around an hr... cos 74 goes np, surely very pack de mah...so didnt consider... then left with 156 or go yio chu kang take 852 lor... this 72 to yio chu kang is hard to get... pack and takes a long time to come... 159 come first, so i take lor...haa... what a wrong choice i made lor...haiz...
haa...jus to go there, took 3 buses and mrt for 1 stop...haa... bus 159, then 156, then 157 from bukit timah to bukit batok... have a pattern de... bus 15X and bukit XX ...haa...

the event was quite nice and fun de...haa...though some ppl are rather hard to tackle...but, still not so bad de...they talk quite a lot after some time we get together... though didnt do alot, but still, feels like is a time where i can get to know more ppl...
kind of lucky that i didnt get the other grp de...they are really terrible as a student... heard from the ppl there, they are really having very serious problems...even the teachers also cant handle them... really reminds me of my pri and sec sch times... pri especially...maybe i'm even worst...haa...

Sunday, October 19, 2008

yesterday's svc was simply awesome...
pastor Kong preached how important our thinking, thoughts, words we speak are... there's this experiment on thoughts and words with distilled water...
http://www.life-enthusiast.com/twilight/research_emoto.htm
the power of the thoughts and words... visualize, believe and speak...
everything in life is according to our faith...
the presence of God was so strong... when playing the worship song, God reminded me of this pic...a vision...and also another new pic...wow... it was really so great!!! felt myself being so close to Him... being drawn so near... so far away from the world, in His pressence...
i saw it, and i believe!!! Hallejujah!!!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

today's jus the first day of communication lesson, and we are supposed to have a 2 min self intro speech...is kind of a stress... dont know what to say... mrs nair still mention not to talk abt things that is able to tell by jus looking or knowledge, such as name, gender, age, etc. .. we are to say something that the class doesnt know... was thinking what to say, how to say... the first thought that comes to my mind was abt my past bah...when i was in pri sch...how a bad stud am i...haa... thought will go according to register...and i would be the last!!! or if call names randonly, i wont be called so quick bah... but to my surprise, i'm the 2nd speaker... thought want see how others say...but is still not so bad lah...haa...faster finish, faster over...the longer i wait, the more scarier it becomes...haa...
it was rather shocking abt my past if you were to know me now...haa... was a gang leader...involve in fights in classes, skip lessons, dont do homework... never ending....haa...
the most memorable de is pri 5...really hate my chinese so much lah...can tell that she dont like also lah...so obvious...haa... still remember i pick up i fight with the guy sitting beside me...during her lesson, cos she force me to write the composition...haa... think that really scared her bah...haa...my workbook appeared only once in sch... and is gone... cos she went and throw it in the bin...cos i didnt do that make her so angry, and i didnt bother to pick it up...haa...so there it goes...my workbook...gone!!! haa...
and also my chinese spelling book...its actually an small simple exercise bk...every week, there will be spelling...surely i didnt study for it...all get ZERO...haa...and the thing is need parent's signature...haa...of course i wont show lah...haa... guess what i do... at first, i tear off... till the bk dont look right/normal, i will use glue...haa...only those that at least i pass, i will leave it...haa...
slowly slowly, i thought of better ways... jus say never bring, and use paper write orh... when get back, fail, into the bin it goes...haa...
now, thought of it, is really funny lor...haa...
but i didnt go into such deep details during my speech lah...haa... dont scare ppl...haa...
from pri sch, with a passing aggregate, i managed to go to sec sch...at sec sch, was still bad, but at least didnt get involve in fights lah... only didnt do homework and never bring bks to lesson and surely without saying, no bk, sure wont listen...haa...was day-dreaming, drawing (though i'm not good at drawing)...haa... but at least i did study when N and O levels is round the corner...haa... but is of course not enough, that's why i ended up in ITE... but thank God that at least near the major exams, i did study...if not, i wont be in the Accounting course...
in ITE, at least i did listen and do my work...think cos i treasure the place i have bah...if not, i will be in the working industry liao... jus do homework and listen in class...didnt really put in much effort... it was 2 saturdays, the 2 jus before exam, a classmate of my, Jonathan ask me if i want go church svc... mon is exam, and is so far...at expo... at that time, i was thinking what a joke lah... have time, why not i stay at home and slp...
the following week, he asked me again...it was sch vacation le...was thinking k lah...jus go for this once so that he will not come being so noisy, and sometimes kind of irritating... :p haa...
i went, and he asked if i want go when the next sat is near... with some consideration, i jus agree to go... it was from that day, where is really... a kind of feeling that i never have before, where words are unexpressable and one that i want to stay in...never will it come to an end... it was from that day, that i go one svc after another until now...
my life changed from the day i die from myself, and Jesus living in me... being born again...
it was then that i have this vision to study well to enter into poly for His glory!!! and is also when i see the purpose of my life... Praise GOD! Hallejujah!!!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

starting sch tmr le...so fast... time really flies... in the one mth 3 wks of holiday, i had hit my target... this goal that i have from the first day of the holiday...Praise God! surely is by God that i am able to reach it!!
really thank God for miu and weijie...yesterday, they went to svc...
its really by God...cos miu jus say 'ei, this wk i want go svc leh..' Praise God!! ask her go, she will be like see first, see first... in the end...haa...
yesterday's svc by pastor Kong... he preached about the economy crisis we are in now... God will provide for us... greater is He who is in me who is greater than the situation in the world ... we are saved, redeemed so that we are brought back to the beginning...to the purpose that God have for us...
there is no lack to scacity in the world... what is lack is our faith in God!!

Monday, October 6, 2008

today's my last day working in imh le... been transferred to amk polyclinic...today when i reach, gave my timesheet to mr chong to sign...haiz...if didnt ask him to sign, then he will ask me over le bah...work half day there till lunch time...few hrs after mr chong told me, ms sanisah still ask me if i'm ok to go there... i did wanted to say no...but then i didnt...for that few hrs, i have been thinking, why am i the only person being asked to go over...maybe this arrange is by God?...its kind of funny...its already the last week and be transferred...its so unlikely...
after lunch break, went over to amk...everything was so different, the medicine arrange was really so different...need to start finding them all over again... still remember the first day, was really having a hard time to find them...haa... the people there is also not fun... the ppl in the store with the ppl in the pharmacy, seems not united de... never see them talk...the whole place seems so dull...haiz.. really misses the ppl in the hougang de...miss the fun and laughter...

but i believe there's a reason or purpose why i am placed at this new environment... :)

Sunday, October 5, 2008

i'm back...haa...been another few days i didnt online le... haa...think will be writing quite a lot bah...few days' happening into an entry...haa

since tues, was having a sore throat le...then followed by flu...its so bad lor... my voice also change... but at least still have voice lah...haa...till now, though not fully recovered, but at least not so bad de...hee...thank God for his strength..
when i'm weak, You are strong...Your my strength to move on...
thank God for His strength for the past few days especially...sick le, still can go work...hee! Praise God!

worked in imh for two and a half days le... everything's alright...hey, think you got to go take a look...its really very nice inside... dont be scared off by the name... haa... imh, institute of mental health... its really so peaceful, so greeny (forest, trees... nature!), spacious...its really a very very good place to release stress...though its not the best place, but think should be second bah...hee... so where's the first or best place to be able to have peace?... that's in the presence of the Lord... not only will there be peace, there is also joy, love, hope, strength... Hallejujah!!!
hmm...for the past two and a half days, met with 2 incidents...first, i was walking towards block 2 from the food centre...this guy walking in front of me was scrolling, his dressing is not that usual or common like most ppl dresses...ya...i jus walked past him and heard him talking to himself...but dont understand what he says lah...haa...
the second incident was yesterday...i walked past the food centre while walking to block 2 from the washroom (the washroom is very far from the pharmacy), i saw this guy from a distance and he was sitting there's staring in the space... he saw me and he was like suddenly smiling so happily... it kind of like xia dao me lah...haa
but its really a nice place...and also its so much better than i expected it to be... if is not cos of work, i dont think i will step in bah...haa... i stay hougang for like 10 years le, never once i had any thought of going in to see see...haa...

still remember last fri, when that person say me and i got so unhappy, jus that day, i have such a strong word that comes to my mind...
love your neighbour as yourself... and also to love your enemies, do good to them and bless them without yielding for any rewards.
wow...it comes really so strongly...that i made a decision to forget about it, and i lifted it up to God... really thank God that with Him, i'm able to let it go... now, we talk and sometimes joke... really thank God! really thought how i could do it... not by might nor by strength, but by the love and the power of God... Hallejujah!
i started by helping her to pack after i did the picking... it did surprises me when i was helping her... ya, very surprising...haa...

fri's cg was by Kevin...the msg was on 'the grace of giving'... but he gave an illustration that rings a bell in my mind, sort of a reminding me the path to take...
walk the narrow way that lead to abundance..
walk the wide way the lead to destruction..
these was preached once by pastor... and i believe most CHC members will know of these two sentences... but Kevin uses a filter funnel to illustrate, representing the path...when we uses a filter funnel, at first, it is very wide, the easy way...things can get by easily at first, but then, slowly slowly, the path gets narrower and narrower that it comes to a point that its all so narrow and its so hard to get by... (destruction)
if we were to turn the filter funnel the other way round, taking the narrow way with God... it will come to a pt where the path get wider and wider... this is where we are living in abundance...


yesterday's svc was really great... during the praise and worship, despite the change in my voice and my throat, i am still able to sing... really thank God for the healing... now, though my voice did sometimes changes a bit, but the pain of the sore throat is gone... Praise God!!!
the msg yesterday was 'breaking the curse of debt' by pastor Kong... pastor Kong shows us a lot of verses from the bible to show how God really wants to be free from debts... God did so many miracles for the ppl to get out of debts... God is a debt cancelling God!!!
debts puts us in bondage which stops us from obeying God and taking away our freedom...God will do miracles in our life to put us out of debt, but are not to be in debts again and again...not to make borrowing a lifestyle!!!

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

today is really so tiring...hg polyclinic close at 12pm...doesnt mean we work half day wor...but to pack up, move to imh...the whole pharmacy is divided into different sections, split work....managed to finish it quite fast de...haa...
went to imh, the temp site for hg polyclinic... is so ul-lu...haa...so far away from the road outside...cant imagine...for the next one and a half wks...haa... think will not have a lot of patients de bah...jus like the few days...the time is so hard to pass de...haa...
imh...this place sounds scary ar...haa.. but i step in, is quite quiet de...everybody was saying like so scary de...haa...will see how it goes...haa

Saturday, September 27, 2008

hahaa...been so long since i online le...and also blog...think spider webs appearing le bah...haa...
quite afew things happened...esp yesterday at work...this senior pharmist technician, thought she senior then she call the shot... so what lor... there are still alot of a higher rank than her...no need to act like one lah... so unhapy with her lor...so act to be "sweet"... talk so loudly in an act out voice to attract attention...doesnt seem to hear her voice when she go around gossipping... so act!!!


anyways, enough of her... came back from church svc, which was great!... today's msg was really so powerful... pastor Kong shared the msg on stewardship...
be a steward instead of a proprietor of the things that we have...
being a steward is having a mindset of what we have does not belong to us.... these are all being entrust in our care in this life time... we will not be bring anything with us when we leave this earth...
being a proprietor is having a mindset of what we have belongs to us!!
these msg really comes so strongly... everything on the earth belongs to God, the creator of heaven and earth...we are created, to take care, be fruitful and multiply... God always starts with the small and little things to test our faithfulness...
pastor Kong also said a sentence by Dr John Avanzini... dont expect God to deposit where He cant withdraw freely...
this sentence really touches me deeply... not to worry for your daily survival needs, for God will provide for us if we seek first the kingdom of God... worrying will only lead us to proprietorship...
be a steward, always not forget the Creator... Hallejujah!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

result's out le...though didnt do well, but still thank God that i passed all the modules. the results are really above my expections... from the ica and project to the final exam...all doesnt seems to be ok...esp my econs and marketing...the result was really far far beyond what i expected...thought i will need to the sup paper de... had all my lecture notez and textbook ready on my table...actually thought want to study for the sup paper so that i will pass and not retake the module next sem...but then in the end also never touch lah...haa...holiday mood...haa...think now collected quite a thick layer of dust le bah...haa...
wow, really so happy...really thank God for the results... all the praise to glory to God!!!

Monday, September 15, 2008

said something to sis while preparing breakfast...it really makes her unhappy and angry with mii saying too...
i suddenly felt if i am the trouble-maker or am i the problem solver to it... mii told me abt it yesterday, and i shared the same thoughts too...mii had once told her abt it, she got so angry, in the end mii say jus forget what i said... i jus find it too much le lor... can cos of that person do that to mii...
jus told her off like this, saying it on behalf on mii?... or am i saying out of unhappiness?... anyways, could really feels that i speak for mii... when sis left the kitchen, mii was telling me i should not tell her off...make her unhappy and in the end, we fall out... but i'm a straight-forward kind of person...i say whatever i thinks...which i will sometimes hurt ppl... this time, did my straight-forward really create a trouble?
haiz... actually thought i wanted to help solve this problem...mii was unable to say her, trying to help...in the end... haizzzz....but at least, i made her realise what is in mii and my mind...

Sunday, September 14, 2008

jus reach home from jurong church building and had dinner...went to help out in the dialect church svc...today, the 2nd time helping out, 3rd time gtg to the church building... remember the first time i went was last year nov...its really so nice, a very nice building...hee...

today actually have a-team meeting for games day de...me being the overall in-charge, never go for the meeting...haa :p like so bad de...
yesterday nite was really thinking which to go...being oic, never appear...not very good... but since i first helped in dialect church, i had been waiting for this next one...finally the chance comes, and gtg to miss it mah?... :(
asked yibing for opinion... she asked me this qn... 'which is more important to you?...' immediately, i had the ans...

it was really great in the dialect church...though i could only understand abit of what is being preached, its really a joy to see the smile and laughter in the elderly face. looking at the excitement they have to attend svc, the excitement they have for God... really find it so great at the inside of me... really thank God for this chance that i am able to play a small part to serve in His house.
there's one, she's really so excited...i was in the lift tgt with her, and she chat with me quite abit... she said she was already 90 years old! wow... the elderly there are really so different... never did i see a sad or unhappy face...really feels so great... praise the Lord!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

after few weeks, pastor kong is back with us!!!...haa... shared a msg with us... characteristics of a son/daughter.
really makes me realise how important is it to carry the vision of God... Not being a servant, but be a son/daughter, sharing the same vision, culture, value as the church.
it is easy to get members to the church, but its hard to find sons...
-a son shares the same spirit as the Father... does what Father does, say what Father says...
-a son does without being told what to do...
-a son serves the vision of the Father even if it cost his life...

be a son/daughter of the Father, carrying His DNA in the soul, carrying His vision...!
today, last day of work in TTSH le... for the last 3 hrs, really got so much more to complete... the same thing took me like half a day to do for the past few... thought die liao... am i gtg to leave it incomplete and go off like this?... but like so bad de... dont know what to do, was like thinking " oh God, how?...i cant finish... and i'm so tired liao..." unexpectedly, i completed it before my official end work time...wow, praise God!!!

for the whole day, this song keeps coming in my mind...
"come to the Father, though His gift is small... broken heart, broken mind He will take them all. the power of the Word, the power of His blood... everything was done so you would come..."

thought quite alot today...how amazing is God's love...no matter how worst we think we may be, His love never fails. He is always faithful... no matter what happens, He will see us through...
saw the screensaver on my phone... a cross, with a sentence "clinging to the cross, i will follow you..." suddenly, a thought came so strongly into my heart... clinging to the cross...will i really cling on?... one day, if everything falls apart, will i still stand strong?...
seen ppl who were once so on fire for God...but now, had left...this really make me uncertain...will i really stand firm?... but for now, my ans is yes! i will cling on no matter what...and i believe if i continue to cling on, God will show Himself faithful... Hallejujah!!!

Saturday, September 6, 2008

been few days didnt come online liao... been so tired from work...esp my neck and shoulder...it will be great if someone can massage for me...haa...
yesterday, it was announced that our cg multiply le... now belongs to N362 liao... the good thing is closest sisters --- jace and anjo...we are still in the same cg...hee! yeah!! hahaa.. so happy...
hmm... i am gtg to miss the rest of the bros and sis de... esp N337... the first cg i'm in, and cgl --- chee kiong... have been growing tgt in the Lord... really felt honoured to be in N337!! :D

Monday, September 1, 2008

last week svc by Rev. Casey Treat on FAITH. now then i realise how important faith in a walk with God. He said these...
if there's no faith, grace will not be received.
- grace is for all, but not all received.
- salvation is for all, but not all received.
- comes by grace, received by faith.

live by faith... from faith to faith.
faithful is the key success in life... what is real success?... in the past, i thought success is to have a life without worries, having what we want...money?...
now then i realise...success... is one day, when i stand before God, God telling me "well done, good and faithful servant"... this is then the real success in life...fulfilling the purpose God has for me... Hallelujah!

Friday, August 29, 2008

one week of sch vacation has passed... felt that i had not been doing anything... slacking, after all the packed study hours, preparation for exams... haa...
morning, when i'm reading my notebook, saw this msg, by gwyn during one of the cg meeting...
it says...
Jesus is the shepherd...the thing is are we willing to let Him be...

The Lord is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name's sake.
psalm 23: 1-3 (NKJV)
then, there's a comparison between a sheep and a goat...

-a sheep will follow the shepherd
-a goat will tend to wander off by itself
-a sheep moves in a flock
-a goat is a loner
-a sheep eats only green grass---only what's good for ownself
-a goat eats everything
-a sheep is pleasable
-a goat is agressive

then i had this thought so strong in me...do i want to be a sheep or a goat?...the decision can only be made by me...either i be a sheep, and follow Jesus... or to be a goat who wanders around without a specific direction?...
suddenly, i thought of how much God had done for me... the me before i knew God, and the current me... how much i had changed, how much i had grown... i will choose to be a sheep, and is willing to let Jesus be my shepherd to lead in my life...hallelujah!

Saturday, August 23, 2008

when i'm weak, You are strong, You're my feet when i cant move on...

Thursday, August 21, 2008

finally...exams is over today...really been so stress, finally, feels like a something is removed...but now, is worrying if can make it... all the papers, not even 1 i complete...2 hrs is jus too short!!! or maybe is i'm not fast enough...to complete... :(
now, is thinking if i can pass them...need to sup paper not...really hope can pass...

esp my econs...is really terrible...i left around 1/3 blank...or can say nearly half bah...die lah...i got so much to write, but got no time to...econs...haiz... really so worried de...my ica jus got border pass...project, dont think i score that well bah...how how...really dont want to this module again next sem le...

statis...study over the weekends...studied all the calculations...but not theory...haa... the paper, all theory qns are blank...calculations, not enough time to complete all, and also think have careless mistakes bah... hauz...

marketing, is worst...dont have even time to finish studying everything...this module is terrible...so theory... theory for me = die de...
in the morning, was really so tired, and dont feel like studying for it already...jus go for the exam blank-minded...
then rceived a sms from chee kiong... jus some words of encouragement... this really let me continue on...

today, the last paper...poa... did a few past year paper, at first thought should be ok de...not so bad de... but never thought that the paper today will be difficult...had quite a number of qns, cant really finalise my ans...being so double-minded... and also, theory qn, some left blank, the others, write rubbish... :(
but thank God i managed to complete my accounts qns...really hope i wont make any careless mistakes...
after all this... thank God for His strength throughout...without His strength, i think i will not be able to go so far... Praise the Lord! :)

Monday, August 11, 2008

jus received a call from mr alan fong...he say the excel ica for last thurs, file not found!!! wow, die liao...how how how!!! arrr... sian diao!!! maybe need go re-take tmr.. but mus see if the in-charge allow not first...wowwwww....gtg crazy liao...thought bsa end liao...return everything to mr fong liao...arrr!!! so many things havent study, exam in few days away...arrr!!! gtg crazy liao!!!

Saturday, August 9, 2008

read a newspaper article today... tittled "Religion: The Big Switch"... reminded me of the day where i went to church, and really felt God's touch... thinking back, its been a year plus, nearly two... quite a tough journey, esp the persecutions and curfews...but God has always been there to go through this with me... similiarly, had been trying to ask to go for baptisim...but cant get the approval... but i believe strongly that one day, my whole family will one day come to Christ! Hallelujah!

Friday, August 8, 2008

finally got back my laptop and is done... haa...so happy...
didnt go for cg today... really got to start studying for exam le...had been so slack... exam exactly 1 week away...mus jia you jia you le..

Friday, August 1, 2008

so what if i am the only christian with everybody?... i know who my God is... and what i can say is i'm happy with who i am now...though you say i'm extra within your... i have never regretted... i regretted only not knowing God earlier...
though you always make fun, i will still stand firm. no matter what you may say, how badly you said, i know and i know that God is with me, not please man, but the true and living God. Hallelujah!

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

so happy...got back my results for poa, and marketing today, ews yesterday...did quite well for all of them...praise God! :)
hmm...marketing should actually thanx glen...really did alot for this project...haa...
ews, have miu miu help me rephrase my sentences... even mrs nair also can tell that the standard is not by me de...but content is written by me de leh!!!...haa... really hope this mark can help pull my overall marks up esp i did so badly for the presentation...hee!...

Monday, July 28, 2008

skip poa lecture to go sim lim sq do my laptop...not repair, but to jus retrieve the data...finally got it back!!! praise God! been praying for the past few days...finally i got my data...haa...
today's presentation was really terrible...received all the negative comments from mrs nair...but, never mind...anyways, its over...wont change anything if i continue to bug on it... what's important is that i had put in my best effort, and done my best... :)
Your presence and word of encouragement is my strength and motivation to move on... Hallelujah!

Sunday, July 27, 2008

angry, angry, angry!!!

really so angry!!! tmr's the presentation, and he's still editing and editing!!! edit till like what?...putting all the words tgt, can form a report liao lor!!! tell him, he's jus so stubborn... js!! can you shop being so stubborn?!!! die die want your own ways!!! ei, this is a group project lor...not an individual project lor...from 7+ jiu argue with him till now, tgt with shuhui... really so angry!!! explode! explode! explode!!!! cant he jiu understand what we say first!!! really making me so angry!!!! want all in your own ways, go ahead! i cant be bothered!!! what's the use?...afterall, you will surely have your own thinkings and edit...waste my effort!!!

Friday, July 25, 2008

rush my econs presentation for today till yesterday nite 12 plus...slpt at around 1 plus nearly 2...

took such a long time to prepare a small part of the presentation... was worrying for my laptop...was really scared that my things will all be gone...when preparing the speech, was alone in the room, listening to songs in this blog... listening to these songs, praying that all things will turn out fine, preparing my speech...really cant stay focus at doing anything...slowly slowly, i could really feel God so close to me...could really feel that God is walking with me all this while, walking through all this problems...

then, eleanore came online...and she encourage me with a sentence...

God will me a way for you. He wont leave you in lurch at situation like this.

after completing, the speech preparation, went to pray jus before i sleep...could really feel God's presence...having tears of joy in my eyes before i sleep...

the econs presentation went on smoothly...but feel that i didnt really do well for it...

Thursday, July 24, 2008

haiz...feeling so tired...jus like shutting down everything and be away as far as i could be from all this things...from mon, fall sick...till now, not yet ok...but still thank God for His strength for this past few days...
things happened one after another...
mon start falling sick... and am really felt spiritually challenged...it's really a very strong feeling at the inside of me, something that i should not and do not want to do...
tue nite doing tutorial, work jus cant be saved...
wed during poa tutorial, the laptop jus stop working, i cant check my ans...
and today, laptop died...
haiz...four consecutive days... i am really so tired... God, what can i do?...should i do???
arr...suddenly, my laptop jus die off on me...at this "very right" timing, where i have to prepare for my econs presentation tmr...so sian and frustrated de...everything is inside...left with nothing now...even ews, for mon is also inside...arrr!!!!! everything's gone!!!... what should i do now???...feel like crying, but jus cry bu chu... God! You got to help me this time!!!... if this is a test for me, see me through and let me pass it well!!!

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

went to ITE yesterday during break time to collect my certificate...wow, after 2 years of hard work, finally got it...haha... so happy...hee... looking at the sch, reminds me of the 2 years with the ppl there...mostly importantly is that its the time where i get to know God...it is from that place, where my classmate, jonathan invites me to church... if i had not know God, i think i will not be where i am now... Praise the Lord!
thinking back...really misses the fun in the sch...the frenz, lecturers...and most importantly the food...haa...

Monday, July 21, 2008

arrr....dont know why, suddenly no voice... the throat dont feel well, then jiu no voice le...arrrr!!!... coming fri and mon have presentation... how am i gtg to present?!!! and also cant talk...its so quiet...so sian de...but i believe God will see me through...Hallelujah!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

feeling so tired de...projects after projects...when will it end?... feeling kind of wanting to jus shut everything down...not only is tiring, still have hard time to really work well as a grp...haiz...first time having such problems, kind of cant cope with it de...
today, then i realise really cant judge ppl by their coverings...ppl could be wolves having sheep coverings. All kinds of ppl appears in this world...

"Behold, I send you out as sheep in the midst of wolves. Therefore be wise as serpents and harmless as doves.
matthew 10:16 (NKJV)

God has placed me in this place, get to know these ppl, i believe God, you will see me through...

Sunday, July 13, 2008

after 3 weeks, pastor kong is back, and brought us a great Word of God in yesterday's svc...
the 4 keys we got to be secured in...
-self-image
-self-worth
-self-esteem
-self-respect...
all starts with self... everything got to do with own...
how we see, value, feel and honour ownself...
that's one part that gets hold of my attention...
our worth is more than jus gold and silvers... in God's eyes, we are worth His Son, Jesus...

this really gives me the strong thought of not thinking what other people thinks and say about me,,,what's important is how i am in God's eyes...
not let people's words and thoughts define me...for i know and i know my worth in God's eyes!!!Hallelujuh!

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

wooohhh...after all the hard work and efforts, finally marketing project come to an end today...presentation... so happy...over liao...and it went so well...praise God!!!
no matter what other people says, i will stand firm in You!

Sunday, July 6, 2008

went for yesterday's svc by pastor Mike Connell. message on disappointment...not to run away from what had happened, not to keep it to ownself...face it honestly and not deny it.... Speak it out, lift it up to God, and release it to Him...
not live life with dissappointment that leads to grief...run our life with patience and have joyful hope in the Lord!!!
during the deliverance, could really feel God's presence so strong, moving in the midst of us, restoring us...could feel God saying whatever situation you are gtg through, not to worry for anything, for I'm with you...come to Me, for i will give you shelter, give you rest...

Friday, July 4, 2008

today’s really a very very tiring day…for the first time being in sch for more than half a day…13hrs?!!! doing marketing project...is like we are spending almost everyday of the whole week doing, and yet today, still cant complete...straight after lesson, nearly 2pm jiu start cracking brains liao...glen's always editing and phrasing our eng and sentences + contribute ideas...felt so bad de... really cant imagine how to last till like nearly 10pm when step out of sch gate...wooooh...so tired...eyes are closing!!!haa...and misses my moo-moo so much too!!! :p
the unlucky thing is i even miss the bus at the interchange!!! what the...!!! should have taken glen's cab... reach home was like 10.45?! now, then i finally bathed and finish my dinner...at this timing...haa... but still want thank God for his strength... :)
haiz...cos of this, didnt go for cgm...today is the first cgm for the 2nd part of the year...felt kind of...dont know how to express in words too...hmm...believing that the ending will always be better than the beginning... Amen!!!

Thursday, July 3, 2008

"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and i will give you rest.
"Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
"For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."
Matthew 11:28-30, NKJV

Monday, June 30, 2008

lost my handphone pouch...i think in sch library bah...but lucky my phone is with me...thank God! ar...cant imagine i lost my phone... its really God's grace...that i lost only my handphone pouch and not phone as it always come tgt...

Sunday, June 29, 2008

yesterday during svc...pastor Tan preached about life and light...though the msg is mainly for the man, but it did somehow impacted me...the purpose God have for creating us, human beings...to carry his presence and bring God's life and light into the world...

My Jesus my Lord
You're the love of my life
wherever You go wanna be by Your side
no longer I by Christ living in me
serving You for all eternity
my eyes set on You in this race that i run
no longer my ways let Your will be done
make me a servant my heart's ever true
clinging to the cross, I'll follow You

this was one of the worship song we sang yesterday...i saw myself on the mountain top, there's nobody else...only You and me... so high up above anything else...there's nothing else...no worries, no problems, no sadness...only Your presence and Your unfailing love...that bring me tears of joy...oh God, I stand amazed