† Following the Shinning Light..

today's jus the first day of communication lesson, and we are supposed to have a 2 min self intro speech...is kind of a stress... dont know what to say... mrs nair still mention not to talk abt things that is able to tell by jus looking or knowledge, such as name, gender, age, etc. .. we are to say something that the class doesnt know... was thinking what to say, how to say... the first thought that comes to my mind was abt my past bah...when i was in pri sch...how a bad stud am i...haa... thought will go according to register...and i would be the last!!! or if call names randonly, i wont be called so quick bah... but to my surprise, i'm the 2nd speaker... thought want see how others say...but is still not so bad lah...haa...faster finish, faster over...the longer i wait, the more scarier it becomes...haa...
it was rather shocking abt my past if you were to know me now...haa... was a gang leader...involve in fights in classes, skip lessons, dont do homework... never ending....haa...
the most memorable de is pri 5...really hate my chinese so much lah...can tell that she dont like also lah...so obvious...haa... still remember i pick up i fight with the guy sitting beside me...during her lesson, cos she force me to write the composition...haa... think that really scared her bah...haa...my workbook appeared only once in sch... and is gone... cos she went and throw it in the bin...cos i didnt do that make her so angry, and i didnt bother to pick it up...haa...so there it goes...my workbook...gone!!! haa...
and also my chinese spelling book...its actually an small simple exercise bk...every week, there will be spelling...surely i didnt study for it...all get ZERO...haa...and the thing is need parent's signature...haa...of course i wont show lah...haa... guess what i do... at first, i tear off... till the bk dont look right/normal, i will use glue...haa...only those that at least i pass, i will leave it...haa...
slowly slowly, i thought of better ways... jus say never bring, and use paper write orh... when get back, fail, into the bin it goes...haa...
now, thought of it, is really funny lor...haa...
but i didnt go into such deep details during my speech lah...haa... dont scare ppl...haa...
from pri sch, with a passing aggregate, i managed to go to sec sch...at sec sch, was still bad, but at least didnt get involve in fights lah... only didnt do homework and never bring bks to lesson and surely without saying, no bk, sure wont listen...haa...was day-dreaming, drawing (though i'm not good at drawing)...haa... but at least i did study when N and O levels is round the corner...haa... but is of course not enough, that's why i ended up in ITE... but thank God that at least near the major exams, i did study...if not, i wont be in the Accounting course...
in ITE, at least i did listen and do my work...think cos i treasure the place i have bah...if not, i will be in the working industry liao... jus do homework and listen in class...didnt really put in much effort... it was 2 saturdays, the 2 jus before exam, a classmate of my, Jonathan ask me if i want go church svc... mon is exam, and is so far...at expo... at that time, i was thinking what a joke lah... have time, why not i stay at home and slp...
the following week, he asked me again...it was sch vacation le...was thinking k lah...jus go for this once so that he will not come being so noisy, and sometimes kind of irritating... :p haa...
i went, and he asked if i want go when the next sat is near... with some consideration, i jus agree to go... it was from that day, where is really... a kind of feeling that i never have before, where words are unexpressable and one that i want to stay in...never will it come to an end... it was from that day, that i go one svc after another until now...
my life changed from the day i die from myself, and Jesus living in me... being born again...
it was then that i have this vision to study well to enter into poly for His glory!!! and is also when i see the purpose of my life... Praise GOD! Hallejujah!!!