one week of sch vacation has passed... felt that i had not been doing anything... slacking, after all the packed study hours, preparation for exams... haa...
morning, when i'm reading my notebook, saw this msg, by gwyn during one of the cg meeting...
it says...
Jesus is the shepherd...the thing is are we willing to let Him be...

The Lord is my shepherd;
I shall not want.

He makes me to lie down in green pastures;

He leads me beside the still waters.

He restores my soul;

He leads me in the paths of righteousness

For His name's sake.

psalm 23: 1-3 (NKJV)

then, there's a comparison between a sheep and a goat...

-a sheep will follow the shepherd
-a goat will tend to wander off by itself
-a sheep moves in a flock
-a goat is a loner
-a sheep eats only green grass---only what's good for ownself
-a goat eats everything
-a sheep is pleasable
-a goat is agressive

then i had this thought so strong in me...do i want to be a sheep or a goat?...the decision can only be made by me...either i be a sheep, and follow Jesus... or to be a goat who wanders around without a specific direction?...
suddenly, i thought of how much God had done for me... the me before i knew God, and the current me... how much i had changed, how much i had grown... i will choose to be a sheep, and is willing to let Jesus be my shepherd to lead in my life...hallelujah!

when i'm weak, You are strong, You're my feet when i cant move on...

finally...exams is over today...really been so stress, finally, feels like a something is removed...but now, is worrying if can make it... all the papers, not even 1 i complete...2 hrs is jus too short!!! or maybe is i'm not fast enough...to complete... :(
now, is thinking if i can pass them...need to sup paper not...really hope can pass...

esp my econs...is really terrible...i left around 1/3 blank...or can say nearly half bah...die lah...i got so much to write, but got no time to...econs...haiz... really so worried de...my ica jus got border pass...project, dont think i score that well bah...how how...really dont want to this module again next sem le...

statis...study over the weekends...studied all the calculations...but not theory...haa... the paper, all theory qns are blank...calculations, not enough time to complete all, and also think have careless mistakes bah... hauz...

marketing, is worst...dont have even time to finish studying everything...this module is terrible...so theory... theory for me = die de...
in the morning, was really so tired, and dont feel like studying for it already...jus go for the exam blank-minded...
then rceived a sms from chee kiong... jus some words of encouragement... this really let me continue on...

today, the last paper...poa... did a few past year paper, at first thought should be ok de...not so bad de... but never thought that the paper today will be difficult...had quite a number of qns, cant really finalise my ans...being so double-minded... and also, theory qn, some left blank, the others, write rubbish... :(
but thank God i managed to complete my accounts qns...really hope i wont make any careless mistakes...
after all this... thank God for His strength throughout...without His strength, i think i will not be able to go so far... Praise the Lord! :)

jus received a call from mr alan fong...he say the excel ica for last thurs, file not found!!! wow, die liao...how how how!!! arrr... sian diao!!! maybe need go re-take tmr.. but mus see if the in-charge allow not first...wowwwww....gtg crazy liao...thought bsa end liao...return everything to mr fong liao...arrr!!! so many things havent study, exam in few days away...arrr!!! gtg crazy liao!!!

read a newspaper article today... tittled "Religion: The Big Switch"... reminded me of the day where i went to church, and really felt God's touch... thinking back, its been a year plus, nearly two... quite a tough journey, esp the persecutions and curfews...but God has always been there to go through this with me... similiarly, had been trying to ask to go for baptisim...but cant get the approval... but i believe strongly that one day, my whole family will one day come to Christ! Hallelujah!

finally got back my laptop and is done... haa...so happy...
didnt go for cg today... really got to start studying for exam le...had been so slack... exam exactly 1 week away...mus jia you jia you le..

so what if i am the only christian with everybody?... i know who my God is... and what i can say is i'm happy with who i am now...though you say i'm extra within your... i have never regretted... i regretted only not knowing God earlier...
though you always make fun, i will still stand firm. no matter what you may say, how badly you said, i know and i know that God is with me, not please man, but the true and living God. Hallelujah!