didnt go for cg today... :( went to pasir ris park, ride bicycle till i'm now so tired...hahaa... hey hey, not go there have fun orh...is go there for a-team, games day... if like left with less than 1 wk le...and we are like at the planning only... havent even start on the proposal...

meet 4pm in sch...was like deciding where to go...at first is want go chinese garden, after some discussion, decided to go east coast... in then end, as walking towards yio chu kang interchange, we finally make up our mind to go pasir ris park...hee... tgt the 5 of us, me, ida, poonam, maryam and mark...it was quite a long journey there... took mrt, bus and had a long walking distance...

when we reach there, rented a bicycle and started cycling round the place... its so far... 1 1/2 hrs... look around the place, finding spots for our different plans...yeah!!! really hope that things will really work out well on that actual day...

was clearing my mail box, and happened to see this mail... abt Mary and Martha...

Mary and MarthaIn the hustle and bustle of the job, fixing the car and trying to make ends meet, we can lose sight of the purpose of life. Many times, we don’t stop the mad rush until we face a devastating personal crisis. You can know the purpose of your life, and it will change everything. But sometimes that means you have to stop and just listen.Jesus visited the house of two sisters. Mary sat and listened to Jesus teach the principles of life. Martha was distraught with preparing a meal and complained that Mary wasn’t doing her part.Jesus answered, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things. But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her” (Luke 10:41-42). The details of life’s busyness would still be there tomorrow, but for now Mary saw the need to nurture her spiritual nature. It is the time you spend with your Creator in daily prayer and Bible study that will guide everything else in your life.
by Jerold Aust
more reading at http://www.gnmagazine.org/issues/gn25/profilesfaithmarymartha.htm

wake up real early...6.15am... and left hse few mins before 7am... early right?...haa... have an SMU event from ateam, at swiss cottage sec sch, bukit gombak...reporting time, 8.30am.
surely will think i sure will be early de right...1hr 30 mins, sure can reach on time de, or even earlier...haa...but then know what?!!...i was late lor...haiz...reach there was like around 8.50am liao leh...then somemore i still take mrt from bukit batok de lor...if not even think 9 also dont know will reach not ar...haa...
now, i learned a lesson...never take bus 156!!!... i took 159 to imh, then take 156...this bus is terrible lah...go make rounds around Singapore...and also go some ulu ulu places...really rotten in that bus lor...that bus is really terrible... never never never take that bus...haa
usually, if take 74, goes to bukit batok, only takes like around an hr... cos 74 goes np, surely very pack de mah...so didnt consider... then left with 156 or go yio chu kang take 852 lor... this 72 to yio chu kang is hard to get... pack and takes a long time to come... 159 come first, so i take lor...haa... what a wrong choice i made lor...haiz...
haa...jus to go there, took 3 buses and mrt for 1 stop...haa... bus 159, then 156, then 157 from bukit timah to bukit batok... have a pattern de... bus 15X and bukit XX ...haa...

the event was quite nice and fun de...haa...though some ppl are rather hard to tackle...but, still not so bad de...they talk quite a lot after some time we get together... though didnt do alot, but still, feels like is a time where i can get to know more ppl...
kind of lucky that i didnt get the other grp de...they are really terrible as a student... heard from the ppl there, they are really having very serious problems...even the teachers also cant handle them... really reminds me of my pri and sec sch times... pri especially...maybe i'm even worst...haa...

yesterday's svc was simply awesome...
pastor Kong preached how important our thinking, thoughts, words we speak are... there's this experiment on thoughts and words with distilled water...
http://www.life-enthusiast.com/twilight/research_emoto.htm
the power of the thoughts and words... visualize, believe and speak...
everything in life is according to our faith...
the presence of God was so strong... when playing the worship song, God reminded me of this pic...a vision...and also another new pic...wow... it was really so great!!! felt myself being so close to Him... being drawn so near... so far away from the world, in His pressence...
i saw it, and i believe!!! Hallejujah!!!

today's jus the first day of communication lesson, and we are supposed to have a 2 min self intro speech...is kind of a stress... dont know what to say... mrs nair still mention not to talk abt things that is able to tell by jus looking or knowledge, such as name, gender, age, etc. .. we are to say something that the class doesnt know... was thinking what to say, how to say... the first thought that comes to my mind was abt my past bah...when i was in pri sch...how a bad stud am i...haa... thought will go according to register...and i would be the last!!! or if call names randonly, i wont be called so quick bah... but to my surprise, i'm the 2nd speaker... thought want see how others say...but is still not so bad lah...haa...faster finish, faster over...the longer i wait, the more scarier it becomes...haa...
it was rather shocking abt my past if you were to know me now...haa... was a gang leader...involve in fights in classes, skip lessons, dont do homework... never ending....haa...
the most memorable de is pri 5...really hate my chinese so much lah...can tell that she dont like also lah...so obvious...haa... still remember i pick up i fight with the guy sitting beside me...during her lesson, cos she force me to write the composition...haa... think that really scared her bah...haa...my workbook appeared only once in sch... and is gone... cos she went and throw it in the bin...cos i didnt do that make her so angry, and i didnt bother to pick it up...haa...so there it goes...my workbook...gone!!! haa...
and also my chinese spelling book...its actually an small simple exercise bk...every week, there will be spelling...surely i didnt study for it...all get ZERO...haa...and the thing is need parent's signature...haa...of course i wont show lah...haa... guess what i do... at first, i tear off... till the bk dont look right/normal, i will use glue...haa...only those that at least i pass, i will leave it...haa...
slowly slowly, i thought of better ways... jus say never bring, and use paper write orh... when get back, fail, into the bin it goes...haa...
now, thought of it, is really funny lor...haa...
but i didnt go into such deep details during my speech lah...haa... dont scare ppl...haa...
from pri sch, with a passing aggregate, i managed to go to sec sch...at sec sch, was still bad, but at least didnt get involve in fights lah... only didnt do homework and never bring bks to lesson and surely without saying, no bk, sure wont listen...haa...was day-dreaming, drawing (though i'm not good at drawing)...haa... but at least i did study when N and O levels is round the corner...haa... but is of course not enough, that's why i ended up in ITE... but thank God that at least near the major exams, i did study...if not, i wont be in the Accounting course...
in ITE, at least i did listen and do my work...think cos i treasure the place i have bah...if not, i will be in the working industry liao... jus do homework and listen in class...didnt really put in much effort... it was 2 saturdays, the 2 jus before exam, a classmate of my, Jonathan ask me if i want go church svc... mon is exam, and is so far...at expo... at that time, i was thinking what a joke lah... have time, why not i stay at home and slp...
the following week, he asked me again...it was sch vacation le...was thinking k lah...jus go for this once so that he will not come being so noisy, and sometimes kind of irritating... :p haa...
i went, and he asked if i want go when the next sat is near... with some consideration, i jus agree to go... it was from that day, where is really... a kind of feeling that i never have before, where words are unexpressable and one that i want to stay in...never will it come to an end... it was from that day, that i go one svc after another until now...
my life changed from the day i die from myself, and Jesus living in me... being born again...
it was then that i have this vision to study well to enter into poly for His glory!!! and is also when i see the purpose of my life... Praise GOD! Hallejujah!!!

starting sch tmr le...so fast... time really flies... in the one mth 3 wks of holiday, i had hit my target... this goal that i have from the first day of the holiday...Praise God! surely is by God that i am able to reach it!!
really thank God for miu and weijie...yesterday, they went to svc...
its really by God...cos miu jus say 'ei, this wk i want go svc leh..' Praise God!! ask her go, she will be like see first, see first... in the end...haa...
yesterday's svc by pastor Kong... he preached about the economy crisis we are in now... God will provide for us... greater is He who is in me who is greater than the situation in the world ... we are saved, redeemed so that we are brought back to the beginning...to the purpose that God have for us...
there is no lack to scacity in the world... what is lack is our faith in God!!

today's my last day working in imh le... been transferred to amk polyclinic...today when i reach, gave my timesheet to mr chong to sign...haiz...if didnt ask him to sign, then he will ask me over le bah...work half day there till lunch time...few hrs after mr chong told me, ms sanisah still ask me if i'm ok to go there... i did wanted to say no...but then i didnt...for that few hrs, i have been thinking, why am i the only person being asked to go over...maybe this arrange is by God?...its kind of funny...its already the last week and be transferred...its so unlikely...

after lunch break, went over to amk...everything was so different, the medicine arrange was really so different...need to start finding them all over again... still remember the first day, was really having a hard time to find them...haa... the people there is also not fun... the ppl in the store with the ppl in the pharmacy, seems not united de... never see them talk...the whole place seems so dull...haiz.. really misses the ppl in the hougang de...miss the fun and laughter...

but i believe there's a reason or purpose why i am placed at this new environment... :)

i'm back...haa...been another few days i didnt online le... haa...think will be writing quite a lot bah...few days' happening into an entry...haa

since tues, was having a sore throat le...then followed by flu...its so bad lor... my voice also change... but at least still have voice lah...haa...till now, though not fully recovered, but at least not so bad de...hee...thank God for his strength..
when i'm weak, You are strong...Your my strength to move on...
thank God for His strength for the past few days especially...sick le, still can go work...hee! Praise God!

worked in imh for two and a half days le... everything's alright...hey, think you got to go take a look...its really very nice inside... dont be scared off by the name... haa... imh, institute of mental health... its really so peaceful, so greeny (forest, trees... nature!), spacious...its really a very very good place to release stress...though its not the best place, but think should be second bah...hee... so where's the first or best place to be able to have peace?... that's in the presence of the Lord... not only will there be peace, there is also joy, love, hope, strength... Hallejujah!!!
hmm...for the past two and a half days, met with 2 incidents...first, i was walking towards block 2 from the food centre...this guy walking in front of me was scrolling, his dressing is not that usual or common like most ppl dresses...ya...i jus walked past him and heard him talking to himself...but dont understand what he says lah...haa...
the second incident was yesterday...i walked past the food centre while walking to block 2 from the washroom (the washroom is very far from the pharmacy), i saw this guy from a distance and he was sitting there's staring in the space... he saw me and he was like suddenly smiling so happily... it kind of like xia dao me lah...haa
but its really a nice place...and also its so much better than i expected it to be... if is not cos of work, i dont think i will step in bah...haa... i stay hougang for like 10 years le, never once i had any thought of going in to see see...haa...

still remember last fri, when that person say me and i got so unhappy, jus that day, i have such a strong word that comes to my mind...
love your neighbour as yourself... and also to love your enemies, do good to them and bless them without yielding for any rewards.
wow...it comes really so strongly...that i made a decision to forget about it, and i lifted it up to God... really thank God that with Him, i'm able to let it go... now, we talk and sometimes joke... really thank God! really thought how i could do it... not by might nor by strength, but by the love and the power of God... Hallejujah!
i started by helping her to pack after i did the picking... it did surprises me when i was helping her... ya, very surprising...haa...

fri's cg was by Kevin...the msg was on 'the grace of giving'... but he gave an illustration that rings a bell in my mind, sort of a reminding me the path to take...
walk the narrow way that lead to abundance..
walk the wide way the lead to destruction..
these was preached once by pastor... and i believe most CHC members will know of these two sentences... but Kevin uses a filter funnel to illustrate, representing the path...when we uses a filter funnel, at first, it is very wide, the easy way...things can get by easily at first, but then, slowly slowly, the path gets narrower and narrower that it comes to a point that its all so narrow and its so hard to get by... (destruction)
if we were to turn the filter funnel the other way round, taking the narrow way with God... it will come to a pt where the path get wider and wider... this is where we are living in abundance...

yesterday's svc was really great... during the praise and worship, despite the change in my voice and my throat, i am still able to sing... really thank God for the healing... now, though my voice did sometimes changes a bit, but the pain of the sore throat is gone... Praise God!!!
the msg yesterday was 'breaking the curse of debt' by pastor Kong... pastor Kong shows us a lot of verses from the bible to show how God really wants to be free from debts... God did so many miracles for the ppl to get out of debts... God is a debt cancelling God!!!
debts puts us in bondage which stops us from obeying God and taking away our freedom...God will do miracles in our life to put us out of debt, but are not to be in debts again and again...not to make borrowing a lifestyle!!!

today is really so tiring...hg polyclinic close at 12pm...doesnt mean we work half day wor...but to pack up, move to imh...the whole pharmacy is divided into different sections, split work....managed to finish it quite fast de...haa...
went to imh, the temp site for hg polyclinic... is so ul-lu...haa...so far away from the road outside...cant imagine...for the next one and a half wks...haa... think will not have a lot of patients de bah...jus like the few days...the time is so hard to pass de...haa...
imh...this place sounds scary ar...haa.. but i step in, is quite quiet de...everybody was saying like so scary de...haa...will see how it goes...haa

hahaa...been so long since i online le...and also blog...think spider webs appearing le bah...haa...
quite afew things happened...esp yesterday at work...this senior pharmist technician, thought she senior then she call the shot... so what lor... there are still alot of a higher rank than her...no need to act like one lah... so unhapy with her lor...so act to be "sweet"... talk so loudly in an act out voice to attract attention...doesnt seem to hear her voice when she go around gossipping... so act!!!


anyways, enough of her... came back from church svc, which was great!... today's msg was really so powerful... pastor Kong shared the msg on stewardship...
be a steward instead of a proprietor of the things that we have...
being a steward is having a mindset of what we have does not belong to us.... these are all being entrust in our care in this life time... we will not be bring anything with us when we leave this earth...
being a proprietor is having a mindset of what we have belongs to us!!
these msg really comes so strongly... everything on the earth belongs to God, the creator of heaven and earth...we are created, to take care, be fruitful and multiply... God always starts with the small and little things to test our faithfulness...
pastor Kong also said a sentence by Dr John Avanzini... dont expect God to deposit where He cant withdraw freely...
this sentence really touches me deeply... not to worry for your daily survival needs, for God will provide for us if we seek first the kingdom of God... worrying will only lead us to proprietorship...
be a steward, always not forget the Creator... Hallejujah!

result's out le...though didnt do well, but still thank God that i passed all the modules. the results are really above my expections... from the ica and project to the final exam...all doesnt seems to be ok...esp my econs and marketing...the result was really far far beyond what i expected...thought i will need to the sup paper de... had all my lecture notez and textbook ready on my table...actually thought want to study for the sup paper so that i will pass and not retake the module next sem...but then in the end also never touch lah...haa...holiday mood...haa...think now collected quite a thick layer of dust le bah...haa...
wow, really so happy...really thank God for the results... all the praise to glory to God!!!

said something to sis while preparing breakfast...it really makes her unhappy and angry with mii saying too...
i suddenly felt if i am the trouble-maker or am i the problem solver to it... mii told me abt it yesterday, and i shared the same thoughts too...mii had once told her abt it, she got so angry, in the end mii say jus forget what i said... i jus find it too much le lor... can cos of that person do that to mii...
jus told her off like this, saying it on behalf on mii?... or am i saying out of unhappiness?... anyways, could really feels that i speak for mii... when sis left the kitchen, mii was telling me i should not tell her off...make her unhappy and in the end, we fall out... but i'm a straight-forward kind of person...i say whatever i thinks...which i will sometimes hurt ppl... this time, did my straight-forward really create a trouble?
haiz... actually thought i wanted to help solve this problem...mii was unable to say her, trying to help...in the end... haizzzz....but at least, i made her realise what is in mii and my mind...