jus reach home from jurong church building and had dinner...went to help out in the dialect church svc...today, the 2nd time helping out, 3rd time gtg to the church building... remember the first time i went was last year nov...its really so nice, a very nice building...hee...

today actually have a-team meeting for games day de...me being the overall in-charge, never go for the meeting...haa :p like so bad de...
yesterday nite was really thinking which to go...being oic, never appear...not very good... but since i first helped in dialect church, i had been waiting for this next one...finally the chance comes, and gtg to miss it mah?... :(
asked yibing for opinion... she asked me this qn... 'which is more important to you?...' immediately, i had the ans...

it was really great in the dialect church...though i could only understand abit of what is being preached, its really a joy to see the smile and laughter in the elderly face. looking at the excitement they have to attend svc, the excitement they have for God... really find it so great at the inside of me... really thank God for this chance that i am able to play a small part to serve in His house.
there's one, she's really so excited...i was in the lift tgt with her, and she chat with me quite abit... she said she was already 90 years old! wow... the elderly there are really so different... never did i see a sad or unhappy face...really feels so great... praise the Lord!

after few weeks, pastor kong is back with us!!!...haa... shared a msg with us... characteristics of a son/daughter.
really makes me realise how important is it to carry the vision of God... Not being a servant, but be a son/daughter, sharing the same vision, culture, value as the church.
it is easy to get members to the church, but its hard to find sons...
-a son shares the same spirit as the Father... does what Father does, say what Father says...
-a son does without being told what to do...
-a son serves the vision of the Father even if it cost his life...

be a son/daughter of the Father, carrying His DNA in the soul, carrying His vision...!

today, last day of work in TTSH le... for the last 3 hrs, really got so much more to complete... the same thing took me like half a day to do for the past few... thought die liao... am i gtg to leave it incomplete and go off like this?... but like so bad de... dont know what to do, was like thinking " oh God, how?...i cant finish... and i'm so tired liao..." unexpectedly, i completed it before my official end work time...wow, praise God!!!

for the whole day, this song keeps coming in my mind...
"come to the Father, though His gift is small... broken heart, broken mind He will take them all. the power of the Word, the power of His blood... everything was done so you would come..."

thought quite alot today...how amazing is God's love...no matter how worst we think we may be, His love never fails. He is always faithful... no matter what happens, He will see us through...
saw the screensaver on my phone... a cross, with a sentence "clinging to the cross, i will follow you..." suddenly, a thought came so strongly into my heart... clinging to the cross...will i really cling on?... one day, if everything falls apart, will i still stand strong?...
seen ppl who were once so on fire for God...but now, had left...this really make me uncertain...will i really stand firm?... but for now, my ans is yes! i will cling on no matter what...and i believe if i continue to cling on, God will show Himself faithful... Hallejujah!!!

been few days didnt come online liao... been so tired from work...esp my neck and shoulder...it will be great if someone can massage for me...haa...
yesterday, it was announced that our cg multiply le... now belongs to N362 liao... the good thing is closest sisters --- jace and anjo...we are still in the same cg...hee! yeah!! hahaa.. so happy...
hmm... i am gtg to miss the rest of the bros and sis de... esp N337... the first cg i'm in, and cgl --- chee kiong... have been growing tgt in the Lord... really felt honoured to be in N337!! :D

last week svc by Rev. Casey Treat on FAITH. now then i realise how important faith in a walk with God. He said these...
if there's no faith, grace will not be received.
- grace is for all, but not all received.
- salvation is for all, but not all received.
- comes by grace, received by faith.

live by faith... from faith to faith.
faithful is the key success in life... what is real success?... in the past, i thought success is to have a life without worries, having what we want...money?...
now then i realise...success... is one day, when i stand before God, God telling me "well done, good and faithful servant"... this is then the real success in life...fulfilling the purpose God has for me... Hallelujah!

one week of sch vacation has passed... felt that i had not been doing anything... slacking, after all the packed study hours, preparation for exams... haa...
morning, when i'm reading my notebook, saw this msg, by gwyn during one of the cg meeting...
it says...
Jesus is the shepherd...the thing is are we willing to let Him be...

The Lord is my shepherd;
I shall not want.

He makes me to lie down in green pastures;

He leads me beside the still waters.

He restores my soul;

He leads me in the paths of righteousness

For His name's sake.

psalm 23: 1-3 (NKJV)

then, there's a comparison between a sheep and a goat...

-a sheep will follow the shepherd
-a goat will tend to wander off by itself
-a sheep moves in a flock
-a goat is a loner
-a sheep eats only green grass---only what's good for ownself
-a goat eats everything
-a sheep is pleasable
-a goat is agressive

then i had this thought so strong in me...do i want to be a sheep or a goat?...the decision can only be made by me...either i be a sheep, and follow Jesus... or to be a goat who wanders around without a specific direction?...
suddenly, i thought of how much God had done for me... the me before i knew God, and the current me... how much i had changed, how much i had grown... i will choose to be a sheep, and is willing to let Jesus be my shepherd to lead in my life...hallelujah!

when i'm weak, You are strong, You're my feet when i cant move on...

finally...exams is over today...really been so stress, finally, feels like a something is removed...but now, is worrying if can make it... all the papers, not even 1 i complete...2 hrs is jus too short!!! or maybe is i'm not fast enough...to complete... :(
now, is thinking if i can pass them...need to sup paper not...really hope can pass...

esp my econs...is really terrible...i left around 1/3 blank...or can say nearly half bah...die lah...i got so much to write, but got no time to...econs...haiz... really so worried de...my ica jus got border pass...project, dont think i score that well bah...how how...really dont want to this module again next sem le...

statis...study over the weekends...studied all the calculations...but not theory...haa... the paper, all theory qns are blank...calculations, not enough time to complete all, and also think have careless mistakes bah... hauz...

marketing, is worst...dont have even time to finish studying everything...this module is terrible...so theory... theory for me = die de...
in the morning, was really so tired, and dont feel like studying for it already...jus go for the exam blank-minded...
then rceived a sms from chee kiong... jus some words of encouragement... this really let me continue on...

today, the last paper...poa... did a few past year paper, at first thought should be ok de...not so bad de... but never thought that the paper today will be difficult...had quite a number of qns, cant really finalise my ans...being so double-minded... and also, theory qn, some left blank, the others, write rubbish... :(
but thank God i managed to complete my accounts qns...really hope i wont make any careless mistakes...
after all this... thank God for His strength throughout...without His strength, i think i will not be able to go so far... Praise the Lord! :)

jus received a call from mr alan fong...he say the excel ica for last thurs, file not found!!! wow, die liao...how how how!!! arrr... sian diao!!! maybe need go re-take tmr.. but mus see if the in-charge allow not first...wowwwww....gtg crazy liao...thought bsa end liao...return everything to mr fong liao...arrr!!! so many things havent study, exam in few days away...arrr!!! gtg crazy liao!!!

read a newspaper article today... tittled "Religion: The Big Switch"... reminded me of the day where i went to church, and really felt God's touch... thinking back, its been a year plus, nearly two... quite a tough journey, esp the persecutions and curfews...but God has always been there to go through this with me... similiarly, had been trying to ask to go for baptisim...but cant get the approval... but i believe strongly that one day, my whole family will one day come to Christ! Hallelujah!

finally got back my laptop and is done... haa...so happy...
didnt go for cg today... really got to start studying for exam le...had been so slack... exam exactly 1 week away...mus jia you jia you le..

so what if i am the only christian with everybody?... i know who my God is... and what i can say is i'm happy with who i am now...though you say i'm extra within your... i have never regretted... i regretted only not knowing God earlier...
though you always make fun, i will still stand firm. no matter what you may say, how badly you said, i know and i know that God is with me, not please man, but the true and living God. Hallelujah!