lost my handphone pouch...i think in sch library bah...but lucky my phone is with me...thank God! ar...cant imagine i lost my phone... its really God's grace...that i lost only my handphone pouch and not phone as it always come tgt...

yesterday during svc...pastor Tan preached about life and light...though the msg is mainly for the man, but it did somehow impacted me...the purpose God have for creating us, human beings...to carry his presence and bring God's life and light into the world...

My Jesus my Lord
You're the love of my life
wherever You go wanna be by Your side
no longer I by Christ living in me
serving You for all eternity
my eyes set on You in this race that i run
no longer my ways let Your will be done
make me a servant my heart's ever true
clinging to the cross, I'll follow You

this was one of the worship song we sang yesterday...i saw myself on the mountain top, there's nobody else...only You and me... so high up above anything else...there's nothing else...no worries, no problems, no sadness...only Your presence and Your unfailing love...that bring me tears of joy...oh God, I stand amazed

jus came back from cgm not long...today's the first time i go for cgm feeling so down...when playing games before chee kiong comes, was really not in the mood...jus be the backgroud or wallpaper, or jus to fill up space...no mood for anything...dont really feel like opening my mouth too...
until during the praise and worship...the atmosphere was really different...felt the joy in the presence of the Lord, and the peace during the worship...wow...
it really feels so great.
during the Word, chee kiong mentioned this 'what's had happened, its over and not to look back at them...its over and nothing can be done to it...continue to press on cos though there may be disappointment, upsets, the purpose and destiny God has for us will not change...In good times and bad times, God is always faithful. He is the same today, yesterday and forever' Amen! believing God for a breakthrough...

what a bad day it was today...jus the first lesson, econs...got to know our ICA1 result...lucky it was released only at the end of the lesson...i did so badly that it really affects so much...it was an hour of break after econs...when we were walking towards the koufu, i really felt so down...i nearly broke down, i didnt dare to blink me eyes...really dont have the mood to do anything else but to jus put my head on the table, listening to the same worship song again and again...as i listen, i began to ask God for his comfort...i really felt so down, felt so sad...crying out to God, i cant take it and i broke down...from that half an hour or so, i'm really stagnent in my spirit...cant feel God presence, felt so alone...as i walk to the lecture, i jus walk, without really knowing my direction...dont know where's my distination...
at the lecture, before Badri come, ppl come and encourage me...shuhui, xiaomin, siqqin, glen...sorry if i missed out anybody...cant really hear what your saysm, but really thanx ppl...

now, at sebawang library, i still dont know what i want to do...have so much work to complete, but jus dont have the mood to...starring in space...blogging...have no mood for anything...
why is it that i didnt do well for any subject...for every ICA, i didnt do well at all...slowly slowly, my strength to continue drifts away from me bit by bit...day by day...
God, i need Your strength, Your peace, Your motivation, Your comfort, Your encouragement... Abba Father!!!

got back our marketing ICA1 results...didnt really do well for it...but i knew that i had put in effort and done my best. Could tell that Shuhui was really sad for her results. I feel so bad...cant encourage her much, never encouraged anybody before...really could do nothing to cheer her up...
we walked home tgt...could really see her disappointment on herself...really dont know what to do, but to be a gd listening ear...
at the interchange while i was waiting for the bus, i suddenly felt something in my spirit...i could feel the Holy Spirit encouraging me...

dont be discouraged. this is jus the beginning of your journey...you still have a long long way to go...not everything will turn out to be what we expect it to be. There will be ups and downs. Life is not a bed of roses...jus know that you have put in your best, and not leave any regrets.

thinking of this, i sms Shuhui, hoping to encourage and cheer her up...
then i realise...no matter what i gtg through...though times may be tough, i will that God will not leave me alone...You will be by my side as i walk, to comfort me, to encourage me! Hallelujuh!

statis presentation...

having a statis presentation today...after weeks of hard work in collecting data, compute, analysis, work on the presentation slides, finally, comes to an end today...
credits goes to all the members of the group, that make it possible!!! Yeah! before the presentation, was really so worried...never rehearse at all... prayed hard that everything will go on well...
during the presentation, nothing went wrong, and not much questions was asked by Dr. Badri...wow, praise the Lord...this shows that we dont have mistakes to be questioned... so happy!!!
really thank God for the smooth presentation and the peace of mind during the presentation, although was worried before that...!!! Hallelujah!

today, effective writing was given a group project...hmm, is it weird to say that the grp members are not really the ppl you want or can work with even if you are given to choose your own members?...haha...that's my case...i'm in a grp with ppl which i dont really talk to...really wonder how to work well with...haiz...really hope that it will go well...at that moment of time, i was really think die...may not do well le...
suddenly, i had this feeling... why should i worry or fear? for God is with me, everything will turn out good... Amen!

servant-hood

in yesterday's svc, pastor Kong said about something that gets my attention...

Why do we serve? what's our motive when we serve?...i thought for awhile, we serve cos we are called to serve, our motive is to obey our calling from God?...

then i realise...we serve is to please God, not to gain approval from people...serving doesnt need to be known to man. we serve out of love...bringing the love of God to the people. Wow, so amazing...

Pastor Kong also asked this qn...if one day, yoou were to stand before God, and God ask 'why didnt you use your spiritual gift?' how am i gtg to answer?...'huh?...i didnt know that i have spiritual gifts...'

i thought the whole nite...am i gtg to give God this ans?...am i gtg to jus keep the spiritual gift God had given?... hmm...mus open up this gift from God, and really make full use of it for the glory of God! Hallelujah!

jus came back from svc after camp...had a-team camp from fri evening...its really so tiring...especially for me who needs lots of slp :p ...really so lack of slp for this few days... though tired, but still really have alot of fun... physically tired, but still want thank God for his strength throughout this few days...also am able to go for svc... :)

when i'm weak, You are strong...
Your my my feet when i cant move on...
Your the light, in the dark...
Your the whisper inside my heart...
I'm all for YOU...

'But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles,they shall run and not be weary;they shall walk and not faint'.
Isaiah 40:31,NKJV

B-U-S-Y

I came across this mail and find this very meaning, or even real in life...

Satan recently called a worldwide convention of demons to catch up with the strong and growing Christian Movement;
In his opening address he said,
'We can't keep Christians away from going to church.'
'We can't keep them from reading their Bibles and knowing the truth.'
'We can't even keep them from forming an intimate relationship with their saviour.'
'Once they gain that connection with Jesus, our power over them is broken.'
'So let them go to their churches; let them have their covered dish dinners, BUT steal their time, so they don't have time to develop a relationship with Jesus Christ..'
'This is what I want you to do,' said the devil: 'Distract them from gaining hold of their Saviour and maintaining that vital connection throughout their day!'
'How shall we do this?' his demons shouted.
'Keep them busy in the non-essentials of life and invent innumerable schemes to occupy their minds,' he answered.
'Tempt them to spend, spend, spend, and borrow, borrow, borrow.'
'Persuade the wives to go to work for long hours and the husbands to work 6-7 days each week, 10-12 hours a day, so they can afford their empty lifestyles.'
'Keep them from spending time with their children.'
'As their families fragment, soon, their homes will offer no escape from the pressures of work!' 'Over-stimulate their minds so that they cannot hear that still, small voice.'
'Entice them to play the radio or cassette player whenever they drive.' To keep the TV, VCR, CDs and their PCs going constantly in their home and see to it that every store and restaurant in the world plays non-biblical music constantly.'
'This will jam their minds and break that union with Christ.'
'Fill the coffee tables with magazines and newspapers.'
'Pound their minds with the news 24 hours a day.'
'Invade their driving moments with billboards.'
'Flood their mailboxes with junk mail, mail order catalogs, sweepstakes, and every kind of newsletter and promotional offering free products, services and false hopes..'
'Keep skinny, beautiful models on the magazines and TV so their husbands will believe that outward beauty is what's important, and they'll become dissatisfied with their wives. '
'Keep the wives too tired to love their husbands at night.'
'Give them headaches too! '
'If they don't give their husbands the love they need, they will begin to look elsewhere.'
'That will fragment their families quickly!' 'Even in their recreation, let them be excessive.'
'Have them return from their recreation exhausted.'
'Keep them too busy to go out in nature and reflect on God's creation. Send them to amusement parks, sporting events, plays, concerts, and movies instead.'
'Keep them busy, busy, and busy!'
'And when they meet for spiritual fellowship, involve them in gossip and small talk so that they leave with troubled consciences.'
'Crowd their lives with so many good causes they have no time to seek power from Jesus.'
'Soon they will be working in their own strength, sacrificing their health and family for the good of the cause.'
'It will work!'
'It will work!'
It was quite a plan!

The demons went eagerly to their assignments causing Christians everywhere to get busier and more rushed, going here and there.
Having little time for their God or their families.
Having no time to tell others about the power of Jesus to change lives.
I guess the question is, has the devil been successful in his schemes?
You be the judge!!!!!
Does 'BUSY' mean: B-eing U-under S-atan's Y-oke?

happy people are those who knows who their God is!

Child-like faith

yesterday's cellgroup meeting, chee kiong preached about faith in God. the 4 person in the bible..Daniel and the 3 Hebrews children --- Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego. It really shows how strong is their faith in God. Standing in faith that they will not bow down to anything except God alone...even when they were to go to the fiery furnace, their faith in God didnt change. They walked into the fiery furnace with faith that God will save them, praying and believing that God will save them...
These 4 person was shot up the fiery furnace unhurt! wow! This really shows what God can do for us with faith.
Suddenly, it strikes this qn in my thought...'are you willing to follow God till the end no matter what?...' YES! I am willing to take up the cross and follow You till the end!

laminin...

last sat, in pastor Tan's msg...build to last PART II...there's this part which pastor Tan said...i was really blown away...laminin...

laminins are a familyof proteins that are an integral part of the structual scaffolding of basement membranes in almost every animal tissues. Laminin is what hold us together. they are adhension molecules, they are what holds one cells of our body to the next... without them, we will fall apart...

this is a picture of what a laminin structure looks like...wowww...so amazing! it's actually a cross...

this really shows how important God is to us...without God, we will fall apart...

suddenly, i recalled how much God had done in my life...for the past 1 year plus, from the day i knew Him...since then, God has always shown me so much of His ways...in studies, in my personal life, in relationship...it's really amazing...wow...Praise the Lord!!!